A Change Would Do You Good

I should first apologize.  

Don't you hate it when bloggers say they have an announcement, and then make you wait.  

Sorry for that.  

This is truly for me and me only.

I am putting this out there, because I want to be held accountable, and where else a better place than the internet.  

This is probably the most transparent post I've ever done.
But it's time, I have to do this!

Here's a little history...  I've struggled with my weight my entire life.
I've never known what it feels like to be thin.  

I was a chubby child and now an overweight adult. 

Because of this, I feel like I'm missing out on certain things in life.

Wearing a bathing suit, a tank top, sun dress, skirt, having inner happiness etc...

These may seem meaningless to you, but to an overweight person they aren't.  

And now the biggest is pictures with my boys.

I would love to have a family photo, but I know I wouldn't like one.single.picture with me in it.

You've probably noticed I seldom put a picture of me on my blog.

If I do, it's just a head shot or I'm hiding behind the boys.  

I'm ashamed. 

I have done diets before, and have lost 40+lbs, but I can't make the lifestyle change.  I always revert back to my old ways and gain it all back, and then some.  

I want to be able to keep up with my boys when they get older.

I don't want them to be embarrassed of their overweight mother.

I want to play with them and not get out of breath.  

I want to have energy.

I want to sleep better at night.

And I don't want to pass along bad eating habits.

So the announcement is I'm making a change.  We both are.

Kris and I are joining a gym today.

We are going to cook healthy.

We are going to pay attention to what we're eating.

Our goal... be healthy!  

Oh, and maybe be that hot couple too  :)  

I intend to give regular updates on how we're doing.

We need to be held accountable!  This is where you come in. :)

I've even thought about posting our starting weights, but I can't bring myself to do that just yet.

Maybe one day.

So thank you for listening.
I'm sorry to build your anticipation.
I just thought that would be a way to get your attention and then there'd be no turning back.

We appreciate your prayers and support.  :)